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MERRY CHRISTMAS. :*)

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart but the very next day,
YOU THREW IT AWAY
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special. :*)




XOXO

2008, A year of Smiles & Sobs. :')

2008 was quite hectic, I mean, a lot of things really happened this year, and I honestly thought IT WAS OUR YEAR too. I ignored reality, for me it was a fairy tale that's supposed-to-be coming true until one day, witches blocked our way, the ray of light slowly lost its glow, leaving me in a misery that will always haunt me for the rest of my life... 2008, my year, our year, for a while then it was all gone, it swept me away, AWAY FROM LOVE. Now, time passed, and farewell to the year that brought me misery and happiness at the same time... :)

2009, I look forward to your kindness, may it bring me lots of love, lots of smile, less tears & NO BITTERNESS. :))

CHRISTMAS WISHLIST. :)

THIS IS KINDA LATE BUT I BET NOTHING IS TOO LATE FOR A PRESENT. :*)

HEHEH. :)

He's Always the PERFECT GUY, but not the RIGHT ONE. :|

I remember the day we used to scribble guys' name during fellowship, cause of ultimate boredom and this one? This one is really very memorable. I drew the monkey, I actually copied my BOOTS STUFF TOY and stuff, then we decided to put something else on the sides, the other one, (the MUSHROOM) haha! WE KNOW THAT THIS IS REALLY PATHETIC & WATEBER! HAHAH. :)

I miss this so much. :|

FRIDAY. :]

CHRISTMAS PARTY ;]

3:30-7:30 pm
Pureza, manila

I ♥ YOU KIDS ALWAYS && FOR LIFE!! :)

CHRISTMAS PARTY :]

AND WE WILL HAVE A CHRISTMAS PARTY FOR OUR VERY OWN PHOENIX CHEERDANCERS. ♥

WHEN: DECEMBER 19, 2008, 4:30-7PM
WHERE: LURI'S CRIB @ PUREZA, MANILA.

&& I AM SO VERY EXCITED, OFF TO BUY SOMETHING TO WEAR WITH MOM, THEN SEE JUSTIN LATER. :)

GOT THIS FROM FRIENDSTER BULLETIN POSTED BY ACHI GWEN. :)

Paano mo malalaman kung ang isang babae ay SINGLE, TAKEN o HEARTBROKEN?

kapag kinakausap mo ang:

* single, wala nang ibang sinasabi. kung ano ano lang. kung ano matripan niya.

* taken, walang ibang sinasabi kundi tungkol sa papabeybs niya.

* heartbroken, walang ibang sinasabi kundi tungkol sa papabeybs niya--dati. laging sinusumpa ang mga lalaki lalo ang ex niya.

kapag usapang pagibig, ang:

* single tahimik lang. di kasi nakakarelate. wala pa kasing experience. wala lang sa kanya.

* taken puro positibo ang sinasabi sa pag-ibig na para bang walang negatibong bagay sa love. sinasabing worth it ang sakit para sa papabeybs niya. di pa kasi nakakaranas ng harteyk.

* heartbroken ang pinakamadaldal. experienced at expert na! puro bigay advice sa mga friends. alam na ang mga baho ng pag-ibig.

kapag sa inuman, ang:

* single ang behave. inom lang ng inom. banat ng banat. joke ng joke.

* taken unti uminom. baka magalit si papabeybs.

* heartbroken ang walang habas na tatagay hanggang magumaga. mura dito mura doon. lahat para kei expapabeybs. magpapakalasing, magwawala, tatawagan si expapabeybs, iiyak at magmamakaawa. feeling niya may susundo sa kanya. ambisyosa.

kapag tinext mo si:

* single, magrereply kaagad yan.

* taken, di yan magrerep. katext si papabeybs.

* heartbroken, malulungkot kapag nakita na ikaw lang yung nagtext at hindi si expapabeybs.

sa group messages, malalaman mo ang babae ay:

* single kapag banat yan at jokes. kung hindi naman e wala lang.

* taken kapag di na nagpaparamdam sa group message. kung pumuti man ang uwak, ang gm niya e tungkol sa happy lab at siyempre di mawawala si papabeybs sa eksena.

* heartbroken kapag lakas gm. puro inspirational quotes para sa sarili. pero kung superr bitterr na e tungkol sa expapabeybs niyang sira ulo at sa mga mapapait na karanasan sa lecheng pag-ibig.

kapag inaya mong lumabas si:

* single, go lang. basta payag ang parents.

* taken, di pwede. kadate na naman si papabeybs. kung papayag siya, kasama si papabeybs. kung dapuan man ng sakit at pumayag, papaalam muna kei papabeybs bago sa magulang.

* heartbroken, tatanong kung kasama si expapabeybs. (may cases na kapag malandi ka, kapag sasama si expapabeybs e jojoin ka. meron din namang kapag kasama siya e bigla bigla ka na lang mawawalan ng pera at biglang mei maaalalang emergency.)

sa pananamit, si:

* single, kahit ano lang. kung ano sa mood.

* taken, simple lang. sabi kasi ni papabeybs kahit ano suot maganda siya.

* heartbroken, blooming! lahat mapapansin siya except expapabeybs. saklap. :))

QUITE TRUE EH? :)

TALK SH T. :|

Seriously, some people don't know when to just shut their mouths eh? UGG, NEVERMIND. IM STILL UP WITH NOTHING LEFT TO DO aside from updating my blog. :)
Okay back to earth, I went to church yesterday morning and my mind is up up and away the whole mass (shame on me). I really don't know why but this little baby boy is really clouding up my thoughts, which is frankly, NOT-SO NORMAL. Seriously, I cant get enough of this. Well anyways, I really don't want to talk much about it. :) Im sorta hungry right now and I don't have anything to eat here. *sob GOOODNESS! THIS POST IS NOT MAKING ANY SENSE AT ALL. HAHAH

BYEERS!:)
GOIN OUT WITH JUSTIN LATER. :)

RECAP. :)

2008 will be saying goodbye in a few days so I want to take you back in time.
Here are some of the few memorable events that happened this year. :)
2008 was great, LOTS OF LOVE and MEAN acts from me. :) Hahah.

FLY

• MY SENIOR YEAR is kinda like a ride to hell. TOO MANY ISSUES to deal with and stuff but it was hella FUN!
• SUMMER of '08 was the best i've ever had. Received lots of love. :*)
• MY 17th was uber memorable. The partying and THE PEOPLE of course. SPENT TIME WITH THE PEOPLE I LOVED THE MOST.
• CHEERDANCE TRAINOR FOR ABOUT 4 years now. :)
• ULTIMATE BONDING MOMENTS WITH THE KIDS. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH.
• SISTERHOOD bondings were the best ever!!
• THE TWILIGHT MOVIE. OMG, I'ma find my own Edward.
• WELCOME COLLEGE LIFE. :))
  

LOW

• Sudden lost of a relative.
• BYEBYE my LOVE. :(
• Graduation day.
• ENDLESS GOSSIP ENCOUNTERS, I CRIED TO DEATH. :((
• Diagnosis of a relative's disease.
• BYE BYE MY OLD PLACE. :(

SO FAR YAN LANG NAALALA KO EH, UPDATE KO NALANG ULIT PAG MAY NADAGDAG NA. :)

WAIT FOR YOU. :)

" I KNOW ITS A LIE, WHAT YOU KEEP INSIDE,
THIS IS NOT HOW YOU WANT IT TO BE. "

Everything just turned out really wrong and now I dont know what to do, SO LOST NOW! I dont know where to start??? DAMN IT!!!

" IF YOU GIVE ME A CHANCE, I WILL LOVE YOU RIGHT. "

Speechless now. But what happened earlier was a mess, but it's a little bit of a good thing. WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT I WOULD SEE HIM & GREET ME IN A NICE WAY. PAST IS PAST REALLY and I AM HAPPY ABOUT THAT. What matters is "now". Remember? Oh incase you forgot. But seriously, im not turning my back on you. Just here, as always!!

" NO MATTER WHAT IM GONNA DO, I'LL WAIT FOR YOU. "

YOU NEVER WERE.

Had my hair done last Monday. AND I DONT KNOW WHY. I usually visit the salon when I get depressed or something due to failed relationships and such, && SUCCCH!!! Sh t! AM I??

Seriously serious, I wanted to make things up to that person! I FEEL SORRY din naman kahit pano. I AM NOT THAT MEAN. Haven't seen that person for awhile. ( OH! I SAW HIM YESTERDAY PALA!) But anyways, it happened. HE SAID THOSE THINGS, HE CANT TAKE IT BACK.

ONE THING FOR SURE.
He never was that kinda guy.

NOW I KNOW.

"ITS NOT HARD TO LIKE YOU, ITS NOT HARD TO HATE YOU EITHER."

I do not understand why it has to END THIS WAY. A while ago I had a talk with this "kiddo" and I seriously cant understand what is wrong with him. Okay so let's get things straight, I was not able to clarify everything because in the heat of the conversation, he was somewhat kinda like fooling around while im trying to get serious. so okay my point is that: "IF YOU'RE IRRITATED, THEN WTF WAS THAT WHEN YOU WERE HAVING THAT STUPID CRAMPS (W/C I SERIOUSLY CARED FOR) I DID WHAT A NURSE SHOULD DO (PSYCH TURNED NURSE) AND YOU ALLOWED ME TO GIVE YOUR STUPID FEET A MASSAGE." You know what!? It kinda annoyed me, if you're irritated, YOU CAN SAY SO! OUT LOUD! But you never did, instead you enjoyed resting your feet on my legs, AKO NAMAN SI GAGA HINAYAAN LANG KITA. So now what!? I aint flirting you for heaven's sake!! And if the taxi issue is another thing, screw you! I told you, YOU CAN. I never said, YOU DO! Another, yung sa Araneta. Okay my bad! I admit. But you know what, you still don't have the right to say that. NOW! KUNG LABASAN NG SAMA NG LOOB ANG GUSTO NIYO, BAHALA KAYO. I seriously don't have time for you guys anymore. Got my own thing here!

* Alam ko na BATA ka, at hindi ka pa matured mag-isip pero sana naman iniisip mo muna yung mga sinasabi mo. BANAT KA NG BANAT eh, kung ganun pala eh matagal na tayong nagpplastikan. Ang ayos ayos ng trato ko sayo, di ko inakala na ganun ka pala.

Its about time for us to part ways, ITS ABOUT TIME TO THINK OF THE THINGS YOU'RE ABOUT TO LOSE, THE PEOPLE WHO'S ABOUT TO BE GONE IN YOUR LIFE, FOREVER.

TIME-OUT. I WANT TO THINK ABOUT IT. BYE.
Hanggang dito lang ako eh, nasagad na ko masyado. Pare-pareho lang pala kayo.

* I dont need MONEY! Got lots of love here! ;*) *