30 Days

So I think I`m gonna start blogging abt a certain person I met a few months back. I think it was February or March. Since I think he`s found his so-called "someone special". I`m having this writer-mood so I plan to blog the very short 30-days I had to get to know him. :)

F.Y.I: I actually wrote abt him on my previous blogs, how I searched for him on Facebook. HAHA. Lol

Day 1: Our First Encounter

Dear *insert-name-here*,

The first time I saw you, I was like wow. WOW because you absofuckinlutely look like one of my celebrity crushes. To be honest, I first I thought it was really him. I gave you quick glances just to be sure. And from that day on, I never forgot that face of yours.

That day, I was actually running late for class. As always, I feel ugly and I look ugly and I could feel that you think I look like shit sweating a lot, looking nervous, worrying abt the time. Hell, that was one good first impression. I swear to God, that time I just wanted to die. You look serious, you look snobbish. In the back of my mind I know I do not stand a good chance on you. Srsly. But still, that day, I found a new crush.

You`re wearing you`re school uniform. And you know what? I just died. I freakin' adore guys wearing your school uniform. You look stunning/hot. Oh how I wish I had the guts to introduce myself to you then. How I wish I could tell you how much you resemble to the guy of my dreams. How much I want to get to know you. But I dint, cause I`m too shy.

The date of our first encounter, I could still clearly remember. A week after Valentine`s Day. I`m so bored with life and heaven showed me that there`s still a person that I would actually like to me so I could go on. I can`t wait to tell my bestfriend about you after school. I`m too excited to tell the world about you.

I told myself that one day, I could cuddle you all day, whisper the sweetest words you would ever hear in your ear. I`d make you coffee and I`d listen to everything you`d say. From that first encounter, I couldn`t help but daydream about you 24/7. Oh how I wish that all those daydreams could come true.

From that day on... I just cant stop, I cant stop thinking about you. ♥


:)

Take Your Time, Reconsider.

I want to blog, I need to blog so I`m gonna blog.

I`m kinda in a NOT-SO-GOOD mood today. I dunno, maybe I feel tired because we had two midterms today, both MAJOR subject so I need to wake up too early to be able to have a ride to school. Uh, I just feel BLAAH. I feel bored, I feel sad, I feel alone.

I miss having a REAL friend to walk with during lunch breaks, recess, and free cuts. I just miss having someone to wait for after classes. I miss having a GUY beside me. I FEEL SO SAD now. I dunno why. I just feel like crying and reminiscing all the good times I had w/ the people I USED TO BE with. I wonder where`s everybody now. I wonder if these people even remember me.

Maybe because, I`m just FUCKING TIRED. You know what tired means? I wanna cry everytime I feel tired, all sorts of tired. Tired of school works, tired of working, tired. Literally tired. Just, TIRED. All I want is vacation. I want my summer back. Fucking test construction took it away from me. I want some rest. I need a break.

and also, I`m a little bit brokenhearted. About lots of stuff, not just about "LOVE". I feel brokenhearted for everything. For something, I don`t even know what. Whatever it is, please just go away. I don`t need to feel broken right now.

I kinda need something/someone to cheer me up. Maybe, a pet? I guess one of the reasons I feel sad is because our pet "bird" (he`s kinda talking) died. I miss him, everyday I go to his cage and just talk to him about everything. I even cried to him one time. I FEEL FUCKING SAD. Somebody please make me happy?

Sometimes, I just think I needed to have a boyfriend but NO. I don`t understand why everytime somebody attempts... Oh I don`t wanna talk about it. Maybe, I`m just jealous of somebody who finally found "the one". Someday Ria, just wait.

Naaaw, I am not feeling well now. I think I`m gonna throw up. What the crap is happening? My mom got operated, my grandmom suffered from mild stroke and Me, they just found a tiny cyst on my ovary and I`m taking meds that makes me fat. :( That`s prolly another reason why I feel sad, MEDS MADE ME FAT. :(( And these ANONS continue to make me feel the weight gain. I guess if they get to read this they would FINALLY realize that I got 99.9% problems of the worlds and they would, I pray, STOP bugging me.

Wow, I guess I`m gon' stop all my rants with my favorite verse.

"And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us."

- ROMANS 5:5

:) Think Positive! GOOD VIBES! ♥

Sunday Morning Rain is Falling

Sunday Morning - Maroon 5

So yeah, today`s Sunday. I was supposed to be blogging a little earlier in the morning but internet connection sucked awhile ago. So yeah, I`m tryin' my best to remember e`rything I wanna blog about earlier.

*suddenly distracted by the song playing. Uhggg, wth is the title of that freakin` song?*




K, anyways. Next week will be MIDTERMS week so I`m kinda a lil nervous cause I`m not really the type to pull up an all-nighter just to study lectures. Nah, I will end up Zzzz-ing. :)) And yeah, I`m not even interested in reading all my lectures so forgive me, but I promise... I WILL NOT FAIL. Hahahah. Confident much I know. :)


Oh well. This blog is a major failure cause I forgot e`rything already. So maybe if I remember and I STILL HAVE TIME, I`mma post another entry. Haha. KBYE. ♥