Take Your Time, Reconsider.

I want to blog, I need to blog so I`m gonna blog.

I`m kinda in a NOT-SO-GOOD mood today. I dunno, maybe I feel tired because we had two midterms today, both MAJOR subject so I need to wake up too early to be able to have a ride to school. Uh, I just feel BLAAH. I feel bored, I feel sad, I feel alone.

I miss having a REAL friend to walk with during lunch breaks, recess, and free cuts. I just miss having someone to wait for after classes. I miss having a GUY beside me. I FEEL SO SAD now. I dunno why. I just feel like crying and reminiscing all the good times I had w/ the people I USED TO BE with. I wonder where`s everybody now. I wonder if these people even remember me.

Maybe because, I`m just FUCKING TIRED. You know what tired means? I wanna cry everytime I feel tired, all sorts of tired. Tired of school works, tired of working, tired. Literally tired. Just, TIRED. All I want is vacation. I want my summer back. Fucking test construction took it away from me. I want some rest. I need a break.

and also, I`m a little bit brokenhearted. About lots of stuff, not just about "LOVE". I feel brokenhearted for everything. For something, I don`t even know what. Whatever it is, please just go away. I don`t need to feel broken right now.

I kinda need something/someone to cheer me up. Maybe, a pet? I guess one of the reasons I feel sad is because our pet "bird" (he`s kinda talking) died. I miss him, everyday I go to his cage and just talk to him about everything. I even cried to him one time. I FEEL FUCKING SAD. Somebody please make me happy?

Sometimes, I just think I needed to have a boyfriend but NO. I don`t understand why everytime somebody attempts... Oh I don`t wanna talk about it. Maybe, I`m just jealous of somebody who finally found "the one". Someday Ria, just wait.

Naaaw, I am not feeling well now. I think I`m gonna throw up. What the crap is happening? My mom got operated, my grandmom suffered from mild stroke and Me, they just found a tiny cyst on my ovary and I`m taking meds that makes me fat. :( That`s prolly another reason why I feel sad, MEDS MADE ME FAT. :(( And these ANONS continue to make me feel the weight gain. I guess if they get to read this they would FINALLY realize that I got 99.9% problems of the worlds and they would, I pray, STOP bugging me.

Wow, I guess I`m gon' stop all my rants with my favorite verse.

"And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us."

- ROMANS 5:5

:) Think Positive! GOOD VIBES! ♥