COMING SOON

Oh and yes, before you continue reading this you are prolly thinking that this is just a blog post containing boy-drama. Well, you're absofuckinlutely right. Your choice to read this or not. I don't care, I just have to say this. I can't tell anyone but I can blog it. *okayyyyy.

So. I dunno, I feel a little depressed now cause my tweets are down to zero from 10K+ and I don't fucking know why. Plus, I dint get a chance to see the guy I like for four fucking long days now!!! I wanna die, somebody kill me now. Loljk. But yeah, seriously. I dint go online for two or three days because I wanted to think about lots of things. I'm so disappointed with myself, why? Because this is not part of the plan! Its not supposed to happen this way if I did it my way. I let fate interfere with my plans in life now I got a problem and I can't escape. I get hurt without anybody knowing, this sucks. I should stop now and I'm making another list of things about whatever to distract myself.

Change of heart? YES
Change of mind? YES.
Why? Because I don't want to be just ANOTHER GIRL who flirts with you via facebook or wherever. I'm not like those OTHER GIRLS who waste their golden time on you. I don't deserve it, really. I've been raised with standards. I've seen people get hurt, girls cry and guys who took revenge. I don't need another problem in life. I might as well be alone than to be with someone right now. I'm not liking anybody ever again. NEVER. It sucks. Well maybe admiring good looks is okay? (;

Back to reality, I'm not that girl who's easy to please.
When that day comes that you start seeing who I really am, I am prolly happy with someone who saw me first. (;